Wow it’s been a hot minute since I’ve written or even posted a blog!
It’s been a crazy few months for me, adjusting to life on the Gold Coast, a new job and new home. All together – a new routine, it’s been a whirlwind, but overall, it’s been great!
I would be lying if I said the past year hasn’t been a challenge, in more ways than one. I can’t believe it’s been a year since I left my job in the skies. Time has literally flown by (pun intended – #soznotsoz).
It’s taken me 12 months, three different jobs, a breakup, two new homes, a pay cut, a sea change and a couple of mental breakdowns to find my feet on the ground (literally). But I couldn’t be happier.
Coming to terms with the fact that I have a completely different lifestyle, has been a challenge within itself, learning how to best manage my chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia, getting use to a 9-5 job and a whole new routine is something I just had to get used to, and like anything, it can take time.
It can be so scary when you’re set in your ways. Having the pressure to make life-changing decisions, not knowing what the ‘right’ decision or the ‘best’ decision is. If you’re like me, someone who is a planner, yet someone who goes with the flow (I mean, when I was flying, there was certainly no routine and structure there), not so much set in my ways, always open to new opportunities and change, but of course, change can be scary, especially when not everything is always in your control!! I always said I would never go back to a 9-5 job *let’s laugh*. I mean, sure flying is hard on your body and it isn’t the glamourous job everyone thinks it is, but I loved every bit of it, the flying, the lifestyle, the people and the benefits! It’s the getting out of your comfort zone that makes it so scary, and well flying, flying was my comfort zone, it’s what I loved!
I have learnt a lot in the last year. I’ve learnt to listen to my gut and how to decipher the difference between listening to my gut and anxiety. If you suffer anxiety, then you can probably relate. That gut feeling that tells you one thing, but then there is that little voice of doubt trying to confuse you. I have learnt that I am so strong, stronger than I give myself credit for. I’ve also learnt to trust the process. Everything has happened how it’s supposed to and for the right reasons. I’ve learnt that I can do anything I put my mind to, and so can you! I have learnt to accept the fact that I am no longer living my dream job, but I am in another job that I love and have the opportunity for career progression and hey, at least I can say I was lucky enough to work as Flight Attendant.
Let’s talk about the anxiety of change. I’ve suffered from anxiety for years. I have it all under control and you wouldn’t even know! Am I ashamed of that? No. But I don’t draw attention to it or make it a hot topic at the dinner table. I definitely think it’s something we should all talk about and continue to raise awareness, 100%! Change can be unsettling to many. As I said, it’s the fear of the unknown. You’re so use to something in a ‘normal’ situation and it works that way. You may feel fine on the surface but deep down your stomach is in knots and your subconscious takes over which you feel in your chest and gut, that’s anxiety! This usually will happen when you’re out of your comfort zone. But it’s ok – it’s normal to feel like this. People feel so safe in their comfort zone, that’s why it’s called a comfort zone.
When you have that nervous feeling for and that little voice of doubt tries to pop into your head and tell you negative thoughts or doubt your decision (I call it interfering with decision making) – nine times out of ten, it’s a good thing. That’s when you know that you’re on the right path. You have to trust your gut!
If you’re like me and you believe in star signs… The moon and the universe and all that “bull shit” (some would say), then you would know that Pisces (aka. me) are known to be sensitive souls and emotional. I would say that the past year I’ve seen those traits more or even allowed myself to feel those emotions, more than ever. I have always been a hard arse bitch, not much of a crier, I have quite thick skin… But boy oh boy, I found myself crying for no bloody reason. Was I depressed? No! I am just a human going through massive life changes and allowing myself to embrace it all, and do you know what?! It felt good!! Don’t be afraid to show emotion, we aren’t robots!
The point of this blog, whilst it is an little update, it’s also a reminder to someone who may need to hear it, someone who can relate to change, whether it’s relationships, career or whatever it may be! I love being able to engage with my audience, and for some reason, personal and deep is what majority of you like… So personal and deep here we are! Am I vulnerable writing these kinds of blogs, yeah! You betcha! This is probably my most vulnerable blog yet. But, without sounding like ‘one of those people’, I get messages on my social media, I get told in conversations, from friends, family, people I know, people I don’t know – all walks of life who say the most beautiful comments and how I inspire them and how they can relate to me, and this, this is why I write what I write and I give zero fucks about what others will think, because at the end of the day, it doesn’t matter! You do you.
Love, D x
